BACK TO USUAL PHASE

my life here in sp was basically sucking the life juice out of me
though time to time
i ll be trying my best to adjust time for myself-swimming, facials and ect
then other important people in life-family,my man,friends
then my finance
somehow with housemanship
all things are difficult to juggle up
need to fix all things
in the end i ended up exhausted, no improvement in my studies
and my room is a mess!
Hardly i can admit tht i m in fact a messy person
i mostly think of myself as the type who will put hings in order and fixated
clothes in the cupboard and dirty ones in the bucket
i used to have a motto back in my uni days living with 2 other roomies in small room
all things which are hidden or well placed wont be messy
as u cant see them lying around and it s easier to find them when u need them
But now i come back to room full of unwashed clothes
i have to really admit to this guilt
i was always buying new cheap collar shirts and undies ,not to mention socks
as i was reluctant to wash them when i have free time
my freetime meaning after 6 pm off work/off oncalls...
i ll go swimming, have nice meal with friends or movie..but the next day,
i will still feel restless..

not to mention there will be some idiots who admit to ward midnight for no good reasons
dont know what to say about them..
like for example
someone who was having diarrhea for 3-4 days but came only at midnight on the 4thday
if u think it s so serious and need to be admitted, then shouldnt u seek earlier treatment instead of coming to us at midnight
when acute patients with real emergencies need us the most?
most probably just wasting our time..coz the next day they ll be sent home..

well, i finished paeds now..in surgical
bit of a suck to day..
nurses not helpful..some MO come only in the morning to see the rest of the pts..
then ask me ..anyone died yet>?>
haha//..

my salary was higher than many ppl but then and again..paying for my study loan
n myvi already booked up 60 percent..really shitty..
somehow time to time i d look back n wonder why i choose this career...
damn.

forgot to add in

I got my pay and quickly bought my car..
i waited for whole long 3 weeks!
then it arrived!
blue myvi..with nice number plate according to my birthdate 8138..
i loved it..
i drove back to home town whenever i had the chance
paying about 600plusplus a month is ok
but no matter how much i earn, the money at the end of month was jus insuficient.
i didnt buy much or eat much
i ate at hospital..trust me food sucks
but better than nothing..
other than that...erm..no cuti lo..
no weekend off..weekend still need to oncall 36hours..
then if not oncall then ok , can go back after round..

poking babies with needles ,being vomitted, touched meconium
and whatever fluid are now norm.. no feeling to them..
just subjects for work..things to do..
to settled before going back.

though there are some interesting cases ive seen...i just wonder
if God ever existed...how come so many bad things can happen..

starting to enjoy nicu

but then i m gonna leave..haha..life slike tht
i had hard time adapting to my working life but now that i m getting jiggy with it
i m soon to leave the department.